ava b. ([info]eye_spy_ava) wrote,
2005-07-28 14:53:00
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it's of the essense!

Last night I was promoted at Abercrombie to "VERY TEMPORARY UNOFFICIAL ASSISTANT MEN'S OVERNIGHT MANAGER" for the last week I'm there. But, if anyone from the NYC store asks when I apply up there, or if I do, the San Antonio store will tell them I was an assistant manager and I'll get promoted quickly and not know what the hell I'm doing but hey I can learn... and while we're on the topic of A&F, I'm going to buy that whole store out before I leave, there is so much awesome new shit in for back-to-school.

So, tomorrow, tomorrow, could be the day my life comes to a complete turn and I don't know if I'm ready for it. I hope I don't fuck up. If I blow this I'll feel like a total moron, which is rightfully so.

I'm going to Cali with Braxley before New York. We're staying in Hollywood with one of her friends. There are a couple of people I want to see while I'm there too. You know who you are. I miss everyone.

I watched American Psycho for the first time the other night with Alex(big mistake, she was getting offended the whole time, by the movie.)I, for one, didn't understand the end as well as I could have but all in all I really enjoyed it. You have to take it more like a prose and not something realistic, and most people in a town like this would never understand that. Saddening. I told her, "look at it as just a story, because that's what it is, on film, this didn't really happen and it's probably not really happening anywhere." And she was just like, "UGH AVA I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE WATCHING THIS." Which is pretty typical, I don't even know why I'm surprised. Oh, that's what it is, I hadn't seen her in so long I thought her mind had opened, seeing how she was talking about moving to California to pursue her dreams and ultimately, somehow, get FAMOUS. Why is it when I hear these things from people I cringe and bless their souls, you can't just say it and make it happen. It seems all people want to do is talk. And revel in some stupid dream of just "being famous", and for why? they don't know, don't ask them, they're just gonna be FAMOUS and they KNOW it. If you can't pick out a movie as being prose and you actually get disgusted enough by it to walk away, then I don't think you could handle being famous, I'm sorry. I don't know, these are my thoughts. I was really bothered by that.


I've been working out a shitload and yeah I gained three pounds what the fuck? I forgot I'm not starving myself enough. That actually starts today I guess. Whatever. I need apple sauce. My ass is really firm though and I'm sore as hell. So I guess those mean something's happening. I don't know.


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[info]omg_nat_attack

July 29 2005, 01:01:00 UTC 6 years ago

you're going to Ny?

thats pretty cool
for what?
anyways u look so pretty

[info]idolsshootgods

July 29 2005, 05:37:59 UTC 6 years ago

I'M high on lifeeeeeeeee. right now. or maybe its jus killla. yes, smoke much bud in the comfort of our NY loft.
fuck we're awesome.

[info]eye_spy_ava

July 29 2005, 12:23:48 UTC 6 years ago

HIGH ON LIFE is fuckin right. tearin through the streets of manhattan, the suspense is KILLING me.

[info]myjealousgame

July 29 2005, 06:11:09 UTC 6 years ago

ON American Psycho: Well it seemed to me like the character was obviously entrenched inside his own egotistical view of what the world is. I mean, he was always in competition over the superficial, i.e, all the beauty products, the obsession over what was hot and what was not, or who had the most cutting edge scoop on what was hip in NY like the restaraunt scene. It was an exageration on certain capitalist ideas and seemed to be to be a bit NIezte-esque. All in all it boiled down to the concept that the events that we thouhgt happened were in fact in his head and therefore further solidified an idea of a subjective ego centric strive to out do the next person and be "better" than the next person. I guess that's were the title comes from right? The almost psychotic pursuit of the "American Dream", the condition of outdoing the guy next to you, that obsession with superficial beauty, those repetitive lines that never meant anything in the first place, that format of putting it on repeat. It's like striking the same conversation with everyone by saying "Dont you just love Andy Warhol, or Sadaris, La Chapelle, or whoever is HOT, HIP, or "SWAYZE" in the moment, and I am just as guilty as the rest, because we know if your not "in" then your not in on "it". Right? In other words... I liked the movie.

[info]eye_spy_ava

July 29 2005, 12:17:24 UTC 6 years ago

hahah you forgot the business cards. they all looked the same to me. and yeah that's the point. i secretly have a lot in common with the main character. bet you couldn't guess.

and i LOVE how you slipped "swayze" in there, although it means "passe" or "not in the moment"(see urbandictionary.com). yeah, i know the hippest slang because i'm just that cool. KIDDING. you know i'm just kidding right?

OH and remember when we used to be best friends? what the fuck happened to that CH herrera. whatever.

[info]myjealousgame

July 29 2005, 13:06:06 UTC 6 years ago

Ouch did THE steve Lam call me a moron? Ouch.

Business cards... oh ya... that was the point right.

I guess I should have checked my references before using SWAYZE, but you know, you got the idea. The slang is not the point Ava and I wan't trying to insult you, well only a little. KIDDING. you konw i'm just well... so.

Best Friends? So thats what it's called THESE days.

[info]eye_spy_ava

July 29 2005, 13:18:19 UTC 6 years ago

so carlos, when did you turn into an asshole? bravo i'm proud of your attempts to befuddle my plans of insulting you.. ?

and steve didn't call you a moron, i believe he was commenting in reference to my post, i was hanging out with alex. just clearing that up. don't gotta get all defensive, gah. is something wrong? what's wrong?

"Business cards... oh ya... that was the point right."
i don't know what kind of smartass shit that is, but it's not flying in my lj. sassy bitch.

[info]myjealousgame

July 29 2005, 14:18:39 UTC 6 years ago

Oh shit my bad... really i'm not even kidding.

I cant believe that your awake. It's early.

I guess that my defensive stance was the American Pschyo paranoia in me. "Is he talking about me? He must be talking about me." Maybe I could blame it on the stress I was having about a fetal pig quiz in my Bio class, but it's all green now cause I already took it and aced that bebe.

I was really serious on the business card thing... that WAS the point. they all looked exactly the freaking same. I wouldn't be surprised if they WERE the same business card. I WAS NOT trying to be a smartass... on that comment anyway. But, Sassy bitch sounds hilarious. Kudos.

You know you know... some things dont come across in type.

[info]notstevelam

July 29 2005, 07:24:26 UTC 6 years ago

man you must hang out with such morons.

[info]eye_spy_ava

July 29 2005, 12:10:07 UTC 6 years ago

I blame the parents.

[info]destroybysound

July 29 2005, 22:10:30 UTC 6 years ago

Muscle weighs more than fat so often you will gain weight as you being to work out. Its a good thing.

[info]eye_spy_ava

July 30 2005, 10:12:26 UTC 6 years ago

not when i want to be anorexic 98 lbs it's not a good thing

[info]destroybysound

July 31 2005, 09:07:34 UTC 6 years ago

anorexics suck!! Well vomit is more like it...

[info]movingairplane

August 1 2005, 08:47:07 UTC 6 years ago

go to Bang! when youre in hollywood.
your ca friend should know what that is.
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